hell yeah

first, just got out of my first meeting since rehab, really good to see my home crew everyone stoked for me on one month, really good people. what is it with ex pissheads being the nicest people on earth

30 days today friends definitely highscore for this year

29 days. cannot stop myself from smoking weed, really fucks up my entire day. trying not to get down about it cause hey nearly a month off the piss but it's clear im an addict

late again, still sober day 23

23 days, def my highscore this year. been ruminating on how much time I've spent in hospital since I crashed my car in 2021, I watched 3 NRL grand finals from 3 different hospitals.

been so busy sleeping and reacclimating I keep forgetting to check in, 3 weeks tmrw.

finally home home, yesterday was a public holiday but im going to take today off just to reacclimate myself. my babies missed me, lots of hugs and fetch. day 19, going good take care all

day 18 almost home im at my ex MILs house playing xbox after a solid 9hr sleep, feeling fantastic, yesterday was rough, public transport for 4 hours with a kid screaming for 3 of those hours "mummy let me past" x infinity, then she'd let him out and he'd go "mummy let me in" little shit fell asleep 10mins away from my stop.

I'll be home in a few hours to see my babies, play some drums and tidy up the house. still enjoying my pink cloud, lasting longer than usual. have a lovely day all

im doing exactly the same, stunning sunrise crystal clear skies. starting to turn to summer, not keen i much prefer the cold

whoops forgot to check in, having too much fun with my homies. early morning skate, videogames then firebucket and guitars, awesome day 17. heading home shortly 4hrs bus and train, meeting tonight I'll be a bit late but going to be cool to surprise everyone. staying at another mates then home home to see my babies tomorrow, can't wait to get into routine and get busy living. have a lovely day all

im out! chillin at my boi fonzys drinking coffee trying to survive my meds wow they work, ultra sleepy. been up since 2am. vidya games tonight, ive been fantasizing about elden ring, deep rock galactic, trackmania and old battlefield games, going to play til my eyes bleed then skate and drg board game tmrw, very hyped.

yeah rehab sucked never want to do that again. most helpful person was a cleaner who I saw almost every morning at the smoking area every morning 530am, she gave me a gorgeous shiny stone necklace and it fits perfectly between my kiwi jade fish hook. just another layer of protection :) swapped numbers hugged it out lots of love and I'll keep her updated at least once a week

have an awesome day everyone

hello all day 15, in 24 hours ill be fully discharged and burning all this energy skateboarding with my best mate fonzy, then we're going to play the deep rock galactic board game, ultra hyped for freedom and to start living not surviving a prison of intoxication. addiction sucks, i know a million alcoholics say this a million times a day but im never drinking again. see you tomorrow and every day forever.

happy birthday mrs gordita! enjoy x

g'day team, day 13. decided enough is enough, im out of here on friday. ive milked it for all it's worth, gone to every lesson, taken every note. long weekend is coming up so to stay here for 3 days of nothing just for tuesday doesnt make sense to me. going to spend the weekend with fonz skateboarding, playing video and board games, trying to erase the bad memories of this place. really wish I didnt look up the history of this place, had really bad vibes ever since. straight up genocide. and the best they could do is put an anaemic garden, couple signs giving the soft version and a literal pile of rocks waaaaay down the back corner of the property. australias history is embarrasing. but if we don't learn from it, history reshits itself. im full focused on my recovery, it's almost become a new addiction. life is so much easier without the deceit, lying scheming plotting and planning, worrying about withdrawals/seizures and neglecting responsibilities. im writing down every check in and conversation ive had in stopdrinking in my little book to be a reminder of how shit this whole experience was and how ive grown so much as a person and im ready to begin living. thanks everyone have a lovely day

alcoholism really is a universal experience, all the shares are extremely similar. yeah I can't stand the god stuff im hard atheist but i do have a higher power. one guy made his higher power a can of coke he kept in his glove box, then his car got stolen haha.

yep only time ive attempted is when ive been absolutely blind, its such a depressant but I just feel so much freer not having to worry about if I've got enough, withdrawals, money, getting arrested and all the nightmare bullshit that goes with being an alcoholic.

currently hyperactive as fk, nothing to do but play guitar, write, read pamphlets and yell at horses. I need to get busy and be occupied, make some damn mortgage payments I haven't been to work all year, my parents have been looking after everything im so lucky and grateful.

my pleasure my friend thankyou, msg me anytime

the in ward meetings are p depressing lots of trauma dumping and bad vibes from patients id rather not hang out with, very keen to get back to my home group, when someone gets a chip they pass it around the circle and charge it up with good vibes I'll pass around my necklace. only let a few special friends here touch it. but plan to get AA circle and triangle tattooed on my right hand over a self harm scar and this cool infinity one mick found and printed out for me, in case I get ambidextrous about drinking. generally, things are improving nightmares are subsiding, way less vivid and retraumatising, new antidepressant and looking forward to going home. i think a big part of yesterdays bad vibes was homesickness, and not just for home but for my home meeting, my job, my family. shit I've just spent so much time in hospitals since 2021, very over it

my first octsober :)

hey thanks v much. i shouldn't be counting but im hyped for my first AA chip, im full commit to sobriety, today's lesson was how much damage alcohol does to your entire body which was, idk solidifying my sobriety, terrible drug. I've had to detox a million times but this is my first rehab, I've learned so much ive laughed ive cried and im almost certain I have bipolar and a shitload of trauma to work through. thanks for the encouragement I really love checking in even tho I go way off topic, but itll be good for me to go back through and read my rehab journey. thanks friend, congrats to us on getting through another day

g'day team, was having a really shit morning, super uneasy "I need to gtfo of rehab" feeling, all that vanished when a C17 globemaster flew overhead, i shat, started tracking her on a flight path app, she headed straight for alice springs almost dead centre of australia, but she made a little dip around my hometown?? other than that, straight line, I was slightly offended. she dumped a bunch of shit at alice and is on her way back here. ill see if she does it again. day 12, learned how much damage alcohol really does in class, big yikes but been fantasizing about weed. hmm.