My shelter offered holds on animals if you wanted to sleep on it. It was nearly the cost of the adoption but the cats were only $30 so paying an extra $20 to be able to think about it wasn't exactly a bad deal. I know this post is about dogs, but I say fairly often that cats are free*. It's weird to get one from a breeder when the only difference is the color.

*This isn't anti-shelter, the cat from the shelter is also free. The vet care and boarding it received were not free, and you're getting a crazy deal on them for what the adoption costs.

Thank you! I don't really know what kinds of therapy are out there, I tried EMDR and didn't like it, I can't follow something with my eyes like that. The links are super helpful!

It always just feels like "have you tried not being bothered by that?" Maybe ive gotten bad therapists, but I'm just not vibing with it.