you are on this website speaking english so I did assume you're in a western anglo country yeah. i tend to assume most folks on here are in the US. sorry if that was wrong and you do live somewhere with a much more hostile medical system to people like us. if that's the case I'm obviously not qualified to be giving this advice. but even if you're in a red state in the US or whatever it's my impression things aren't so bad yet that a doctor will report you for being on diy or refuse care or something like that. patient confidentiality and duty of care is still a thing.

I'm not gonna interrogate you on why that is, but overcoming that fear or whatever it is standing in your way is what I would strongly urge. that is what will benefit you most in the long term. if you really can't for whatever reason you can still get bloods you'll just have to hand wave any questions that come up around your levels... (like I said most docs are just gonna put 2 and 2 together) it will make it more awkward of a process but not impossible. doctors aren't cops. all you need to do is get your hands on your bloods numbers, you can do the research yourself to know if they're within goal levels. not trying to sound harsh or make assumptions but it seems like the barrier is more of a mental one for you than any concrete aspect of the medical process standing in your way. no judgement of course but that's my 2c. depending on where you are there may be specialized bloods services that are a bit more anonymous than a regular GP visit/are just for you to get those numbers with no expectation of followup treatment so that could be worth a look. you're definitely overthinking how invasively they're likely gonna act about the whole thing tho. not saying it never happens but most docs are a bit more normal than that

Like, going in to get blood work, and they're like, "your E levels are super high, we gotta get to the root of this" and I'm like "erm... Yeah"

if your doctor doesn't totally suck and cares about duty of care at all this shouldn't be an issue, you can just tell them the truth. realistically they will put 2 and 2 together anyway. i think you're envisioning a worst case scenario that's pretty unlikely. wait until after getting the bloods if you do think they're sus. they can't force "treatment" on you that you don't want. mind you I have had one nightmare GP deny me care because of it but I really feel like that's not the norm at all. docs aren't dumb they know people do this stuff and most of them don't take it on themselves to become cops about it. I'm no big fan of doctors at all but honestly I think most of them are above that. you're entitled to medical care regardless of what drugs you're putting in your body and I'd urge you to try see it that way and build confidence to exercise that right.

my mam has been asking me a bunch of stuff about communism so i sent her the Parenti lecture

my regular is putting on one quick layer of black and letting it chip off for a few weeks

no, it's not too much and it sounds like your partner acted carelessly, and that's putting it generously. it's verging on a toxic individualism. i would try to make it clear to her what she did and how it made you feel (dismissed, frustrated etc.) you may have done that already but just a warning, failure to communicate this now could make it a bigger issue down the line - building resentment, etc. especially if this is a pattern of behavior which it sounds like it might be, you gotta make that clear to her and underline that it's a problem.

above all I'm sorry you were treated that way. your feelings of dismissal and frustration are completely valid. and it should ALWAYS be ok to ask a partner for validation even for little things. it's a total bare minimum expectation in my view.

it was ok but had to quit because too many people kept telling me to vote for joe biden

i live in Ireland and there are a lot of maoists here. i feel like they have some points about why it fits in a country like this but i also don't understand it all that well so can't really speak on it

very funny and informative comment lol thank you

ideology. it's extremely powerful and will compel people to essentially become cops enforcing social norms often going as far as using actual violence or killing. neurotypical, patriarchal, cisheterosexual norms. we live in a society etc.

Patton basically wanted to continue the war of extermination against the Soviets even suggesting using German prisoners to fight them. he has some wild quotes about it. off the wall antisemite too.

i feel like it's gonna vary a lot but i don't find the pain too bad at all, very easy to tolerate on my legs and arms

yeah thought like this until i turned 16 cause i went to all boys catholic institutions and didn't make any real girl friends until then lol

drunk cis woman was wildly transphobic to me and my gf in the supermarket:/ not particularly upset by it, but definitely went fight or flight and coming down from that is no fun, end up getting dissociated for a while. they're always with the sidling up and muttering under their breath, like say it with your chest coward. anyway proud of myself cause I chose to just say something dismissive and move us away and she fucked off to go antagonise other people in the supermarket(???). couple years ago I might have escalated to a fight so I'm proud of myself for making what I think was the wise choice, even if a part of me is unsatisfied by avoiding confrontation.

learning the number of Nazis actually executed at Nuremberg is wild lol

yeah I've never had any trouble bringing prescription meds transatlantic. just put em in the checked bag

like others have said it's very much already here if you're part of a marginalized group, especially immigrants. i would say broadly speaking we are in more of a 1924 than a 1974 or even 2004 and full on European fascism is on the way. I fully expect overt cooperation between the liberals who hold hegemonic power in my country and the up and coming fascists within a couple of election cycles. whether the left is prepared for these things is another conversation.

lol. sorry but "espousing dialectical materialism is making excuses for individual racists" is such a baby brained take i will not engage with it any further. you genuinely sound like a wrecker. read stalin.